At 11:17am today we lost the fight but she was in my arms and glad I had the last moments with her despite how difficult it is. Spirit let out a gutteral cry when she passed then ignored her. It is obvious she is feeling the loss. Sprit is such a special dog - to embrace, love and then feel immense loss. I am so sorry that I put her through the loss. Willow and the other dogs sniffed and walked away.
Here is a video of her after passing - my memorial to her. Do not watch if you can't.
As the houurs go by, Willow is now looking for the pup and seeking comfort. I need to do blogs. Don't feel like it but must.
Thank you for the consoling words. Nathan said he can not handle loss. Who can. So he protects himself by not getting close till we have play sessions. I have been the person who in pouring rain brings a dog to the vet to be euthanized as it is time. I am always the person bearing the hard load. Today it feels like too much and sometimes I wish I was Nathan vs. me.
I usually can get a puppy to rally though it is rare that I need to. This time I failed. That hurts.